My life and reasons behind my self harming

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My life and reasons behind my self harming!!! : 

My life and reasons behind my self harming!!! Illustrated by Jessie Hore

I grew up in a family so cold...... : 

I grew up in a family so cold......

An alcoholic fatherA depressed emotionally abusive motherAn abusive manipulative brotherAn out of control sister And 2 drug fucked half sisters......I hear voices since I was 7 : 

An alcoholic fatherA depressed emotionally abusive motherAn abusive manipulative brotherAn out of control sister And 2 drug fucked half sisters......I hear voices since I was 7

I’ve been sexually abused and physically abused by my half brother for 7 years.I escaped numerous of times where he tried to kill me.He chased me around the house with an axe and missed me by centimetres and it got stuck in the door : 

I’ve been sexually abused and physically abused by my half brother for 7 years.I escaped numerous of times where he tried to kill me.He chased me around the house with an axe and missed me by centimetres and it got stuck in the door

I watched my sister become out of control, and try and kill my mum, I watched as she smashed people at school and swore at teachers. I watched as she drove away in the department of human services car : 

I watched my sister become out of control, and try and kill my mum, I watched as she smashed people at school and swore at teachers. I watched as she drove away in the department of human services car

I was exposed to drugs by the age of 5, my oldest sister was babysitting me and I was in a place full of drunks, needles, speed and dope. There was no escape. : 

I was exposed to drugs by the age of 5, my oldest sister was babysitting me and I was in a place full of drunks, needles, speed and dope. There was no escape.

I was beaten black and blue at school and called horrible names, I've been winded, knocked out and had several broken ribs.I had a song made up about my last nameJessie HoreApple Core69er on the floor : 

I was beaten black and blue at school and called horrible names, I've been winded, knocked out and had several broken ribs.I had a song made up about my last nameJessie HoreApple Core69er on the floor

I’ve put up with being sexually abused by my brothers friends and been sold for his drugs. : 

I’ve put up with being sexually abused by my brothers friends and been sold for his drugs.

I’ve lived with nearly every family member and a few friends as I was never wanted by my parents.I’ve lived on the streets for many months. : 

I’ve lived with nearly every family member and a few friends as I was never wanted by my parents.I’ve lived on the streets for many months.

In the past I have suffered with alcoholism, anorexia and bulimia but never took drugs besides trying pot for the first time at 17 and never again. : 

In the past I have suffered with alcoholism, anorexia and bulimia but never took drugs besides trying pot for the first time at 17 and never again.

I’ve lived with a heroin junkie and her kids, I watched as they drank curled milk and ate out of cans. I watched there best mate die from a “hot” shot. : 

I’ve lived with a heroin junkie and her kids, I watched as they drank curled milk and ate out of cans. I watched there best mate die from a “hot” shot.

I’ve been in and out of psychiatric wards since I was 12 years of age.I have attempted suicide in so many different ways.Overdosing, hanging, hit by a car, jumping, cutting deep. : 

I’ve been in and out of psychiatric wards since I was 12 years of age.I have attempted suicide in so many different ways.Overdosing, hanging, hit by a car, jumping, cutting deep.

I have seen many different mental health professionals all that say there is nothing they can do for me. I ask for help and they turn me away. : 

I have seen many different mental health professionals all that say there is nothing they can do for me. I ask for help and they turn me away.

I started cutting myself at 12 years of age it started like this.... : 

I started cutting myself at 12 years of age it started like this.... I was kicked out of home for drinking out of my mums coffee cup by my step dad. I had no where to go and I was angry I saw glass and I cut myself and felt relief

I cut myself badly at the age of 13 and required 13 stitches I cut a vein which wasn’t important so it didn’t matter. : 

I cut myself badly at the age of 13 and required 13 stitches I cut a vein which wasn’t important so it didn’t matter.

Pictures of me..... : 

Pictures of me.....

So I am covered in scars head to toe. I cut to...... : 

So I am covered in scars head to toe. I cut to......

Release the tensionTo deal with my voicesTo feel relief just for a momentTo express my pain that I cannot talk aboutTo let out the pain built up insideTo stop me from committing suicideTo get through the day : 

Release the tensionTo deal with my voicesTo feel relief just for a momentTo express my pain that I cannot talk aboutTo let out the pain built up insideTo stop me from committing suicideTo get through the day

To feel at least somethingTo punish myself for all the things I do wrongTo destroy my disgusting bodyTo discipline myselfTo keep me calm : 

To feel at least somethingTo punish myself for all the things I do wrongTo destroy my disgusting bodyTo discipline myselfTo keep me calm

I am not an attention seeker. I’m not an emo.I do not want sympathy or empathy I want people to understand that the mental health system is fucked and some one needs to help people like me out there instead of passing us around like a hot potato. : 

I am not an attention seeker. I’m not an emo.I do not want sympathy or empathy I want people to understand that the mental health system is fucked and some one needs to help people like me out there instead of passing us around like a hot potato.

I still study, I have a job and I may even have one friend but that doesn’t mean that everyday I don’t think of suicide or how much people would be better off without me a live. Because each and everyday I wish I will never wake : 

I still study, I have a job and I may even have one friend but that doesn’t mean that everyday I don’t think of suicide or how much people would be better off without me a live. Because each and everyday I wish I will never wake

Thanks for watching my videoMy name is Jessie Hore I am 17 years of age I am still putting up with no support from the mental health system and self harming to the point I need stitches : 

Thanks for watching my videoMy name is Jessie Hore I am 17 years of age I am still putting up with no support from the mental health system and self harming to the point I need stitches

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